Happy Tuesday, my friends! I'm pretty sure this day of the week is going to be my new blogging day so keep your eyes peeled for a new post every Tuesday!
This past weekend was full of good eats in Durham. I went to my first tapa restaurant for dinner and grubbed on an awesome brunch at a local diner. Oh, and I ate some ice cream (even though it was 20 degrees here). Who says it needs to be hot outside to enjoy delicious ice cream? Not me, that's for sure.
When Sunday night rolled around, I was feeling kinda bloated and could tell my body was craving sugar. I was most likely craving sugar because at brunch earlier, I had waffles and syrup (yum by the way). Instead of ignoring this craving or feeling guilty, I honored the feeling and snacked on some dark chocolate. There was no reason for me to feel guilty; my body was clearly responding to something and I chose to listen.
The me from two years ago would have went on a downward spiral that night. I probably (actually certainly) would have binged hardcore the rest of the day Sunday. I would've eaten anything and everything that I labeled as "bad" food and come Monday, I would've restricted heavily. These binges stemmed from feelings of guilt and shame. I always felt guilty after eating something not "clean" because I wanted to be the perfect eater (whatever that is). This guilt and shame did not benefit me physically or mentally. Physically, I was wreaking havoc on my body by constantly bingeing or constantly restricting. Mentally, I was constantly battling negative feelings about my food habits and my body image.
I went through this cycle for about 4 years. Some phases were more intense than others. Nonetheless, I battled food and body image issues for good part of my 20's. While I am sad that I went through this, I am also grateful because I can now share my story and help women like you. The point of this blog is to share a little piece of me so that you can believe in yourself and remain hopeful that your future will be one full of food freedom and body love.
For a number of years, I was where you currently are. I was restricting calories and macronutrients all the while missing out on life. Food was in total control for those 4 years and I missed out on a lot that life had to offer. This was because I became obsessed with dieting and obsessed with looking a certain way. Diet culture told me (and still tells me) that in order to be beautiful, I have to be a certain shape and size (#overit).
There is so much money in the diet industry so unfortunately, this beauty standard is not going to go away anytime soon.
Amidst this unfortunate beauty standard, I encourage you to jump off the diet wagon for good. Start listening to your body instead of the diet books. Don't buy into the fads out there. Only you know what feels good to you.
Once you start to drop the diet mentality and start listening to your body, your life will begin to thrive. You will finally be able to experience those delicious waffles at brunch and experience zero guilt.
Love and peace,
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