For a solid four years, food controlled my entire life. I was obsessed with dieting in order to look a certain way and I never truly accepted my body. I thought if I stuck to "clean eating", I would achieve the "perfect" body and a happier life. Because of this, my life revolved around food and exercise.
During these years, every decision revolved around food. If I was going to a social event, I made sure to drink a protein shake beforehand. If I was going on a road trip, I stocked up on anything I thought was clean so that I would not have to cheat on whatever diet I was following at the time. Not only was food in total control but my mind was also full of body-hate. At times, I judged my legs for being too muscular. My stomach was never flat enough. The cellulite on my legs constantly bothered me.
I felt alone in these struggles and ended up (ironically) turning to food to avoid my emotions. Eventually, this turned into binge eating and I used to hide what I ate from everyone. I had never felt more horrible and my body was not thriving. My mind was being overtaken by so much food anxiety and body-hate.
This anxiety I was having around food and my body was stopping me from living my life.
I finally started seeking help via therapy and started to educate myself at the Institute for Integrative Nutrition. Through therapy and self-discovery, I began the healing process. Once I finally stopped thinking of my food anxiety as a will power issue, my mentality began to change. I learned how to ditch the diet mentality and began listening to my own body. I started making food choices that my body was telling me to make. I started to love my body for everything that it was instead of wanting it to be something else.
This self-love and trust in my body ultimately helped me reach a place of total food freedom and body-love.
Flash forward to now and I have never felt better about life.
It took me a while to get out of that place of obsessive dieting and body-hate but I'm forever grateful for this journey. This journey taught me a lot about myself and what I'm meant to do in the world. I wholeheartedly believe that my mission in life is to help educate and empower women who are going through similar struggles.
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In September 2015, I decided to go back to school to receive my health coaching certificate from the Institute for Integrative Nutrition. My education provided me with a solid background in how food affects our bodies and also the importance of holistic living.